Friday, September 02, 2005
{ 7:53 AM }
my life is coming to an end..i can see no light. i dont know why..my future seems so bleak n vague. i dunt noe wat it'll be like. my dreams and hopes are broken. i'm lost in the darkness of life. all i could do was sit there and cry. i had nobody. i'm all alone. childhood seemed like death years. i can no longer see the innocence in things. totally devastated. no hope, shattered dreams. life failed me. you may think i had no worries, but you are totally wrong. i worry day and night, for the many things adult too worry about. every night i weep in silent tears. nothing gold can stay. i remember the days of luxury, now no longer it'll be. i saw no way for me to escape. my life's candle will soon be to exhausted to continue burning. i know nobody cares. stop pretending. i dont want people to pretend like they cared about me. i want true feelings, not sympathy. go away..i need you no more. leave me alone to die. so far, my only solution is..death. i'm too tired to carry on this meaningless life. it's totally meaningless..i just know it.
okies..today had ct. it's science. walao eh..guess wat? i studied so hard for it, n later i found out that i didnt do one 4 marks question, which is like so easy de cans? i vv angry with myself. i mean..why didnt they go bold it? haiz..this time die liaos larz..4 marks lehs..haiz..cant get an A liaoz. i had bad mood for the whole day. during lesson, si min n yiting were like stripping all the princes n princesses off their titles. haiz..i still remain as prince larz, but they sent me to another country to train myself. i mean..it makes no difference being kicked out lorx. haiz..nvm. later haf np. we haf campcraft tuday. yay~i simple love campcraft, dhen during campcraft we were like crapping away. aft tt we had a while of rt. heheex..nice day, no drills. aft which we had pt. haiz..did a lot of pumpings. it was so idiotic. i mean it's not tt tuff, but it's idiotic. luckily no running due to the bad weather. i liked tuday's activity. so slack. sho nice. i wanna b in da campcraft team..i want..but i dunt tink sho bahz..tuday early dismissal. 6.00 dhen cn go home liaoz..me n xueli were like tokking away..dhen a vv attitude sir showed sum attitude face larz..haiz..sho tired. wanna die liaoz..i found out many things. i found out life isnt nice at all. there aint innocence in anything left for us people to presserve. it cn sum tym b distrous. i pray for things to get betta. for my mom to dunt nid tuu worrie for IT.